|
SubscriptionsSites I Read
|
|
|
|
| Memory lane today after seeing pics of my dad holding a fish he caught....
When I was young I used to go spend 3 weeks in North Dakota every year with family out there and go fishing at my aunts fishing resort called Indian Hills. I loved it so much...catching them...cleaning them (not as much) and cooking them ( I didnt eat them either..not a fan of fish..but other people did). I loved the excitement of fighting what was on the other end of the line. Just being out there was always so peaceful. Well except for the time a rattle snake almost bit my brother and my aunt had to beat it with a huge stick..not so much peaceful at that point. But we would just wander and find old arrowheads and ride horses and 4 wheelers. I can definitely still recall problems in life very vividly at that age...but for those 3 weeks they weren't right in my face. When Kayden gets old enough we will definitely be taking fishing and camping trips.
| | |
| I have so much I want to do....and don't even know where or how to begin. And I know the practical answer is just...simply begin.
I'm my own worst critic so I think its a matter of when I actually do some of these things that I wont measure up to my own standards...how stupid is that? And if I were giving advice to someone else it'd be so simple to say..just get started and give it your best shot...the only way you will get better and reach your goals is by working at it.(insert inspirational speech here..oh Michael Jordan got cut from his freshman basketball team..and oh it took so and so this many times to come up with this invention) But when it comes to applying what I know...ughh that's the hard part.
I'm finally moving into my own place this week. Going to be a big change after living with my mom for 8 months and having her around all the time so once Kayden was sleeping I could just say..hey mom I'm running to the store...or hey mom I'm hopping in the shower...she was always there to help me in little ways. I hope and pray that I can be as unselfish and giving as my mom is......she truly amazes me and I appreciate her so much.
Holidays are coming up and its going to be rough this year...Kayden will be in Nashville over Thanksgiving and He will have a blast I'm sure...but brokeness is never easy to deal with.
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name. Great is our Lord and mighty in power; His understanding has no limit." Psalms 147: 3-5
| | |
| So lately photography has really been on my mind a lot. My whole life different photographers have always told me you have a good eye, unique way of shooting things...blah blah blah and the funny thing is I dont ever really even post the stuff I actually shoot. Like a few weeks ago a photographer I know as an acquaintance started talking to me about "my good eye" and I asked " what are you basing that statement off of" and she says " your facebook pictures." I wanted to be like...are you kidding me...most of the stuff I post on there are just like point and shoot junk photos where 3/4ths of the time Im looking like an idiot along side of the people I love in life haha.
But the more I look into photography and graphic design the more inspired I get....and I have so many ideas but no way to get them out because I'm uneducated....which I'm all for teaching myself but that means investing money into the right programs and getting something other than a junk camera. So hopefully i'll go to my mailbox one day soon and a big envelope of cash will be waiting for me.
Next thing occupying my mind...music. My gosh I have song ideas coming out of my ears...but that would take a keyboard where all the keys work and/or the piano that is stuck at my old house. So getting to that stuff is in my hopefully someday soon file.
Last... I really feel like I would love a change of scenery...a random adventure for a few days. I have time off around Thanksgiving and Kayden is going to be in Nashville for 5 days...but then again that would mean an envelope full of cash in my mailbox is needed and/or a plane ticket.
The mailman better get busy.
| | |
| I put such limitations on my world
It is obvious that there are so many places to go and so many people to meet and yet I so often forget that and feel trapped in a little box of a world. The good thing about stepping outside of your world is being reminded of that..the difficult part is stepping back into your box after feeling connections with those new people or places...however, it serves as a great reminder not to settle for anything or anyone..but to strive for the extraordinary.
| | |
| "A lie can travel half way around the world while the truth is putting on its shoes. "
Charles Spurgeon As of late I have really been considering how and with whom I spend my time. In the last year I have trulyseen peoples true colors shine through and even when I knew people werent truly my friends I continued to allow themto play a part in my life...just so I could say I was there for them when they needed me but I must say Im exhaustedfrom those who are bound to just see the worst in everything. It is difficult when you realize things about yourself that you thought were actually a benefit...but then it dawnson you that its actually a weakness. I have learned that I allow people to get close to me way too quickly. Ijust dive right in to any kind of friendship..relationship..I throw all my trust in there ..let down my guard..and then BAMend up getting a 2x4 to the face more times than not. Now that doesnt mean I regret by any means beingtransparent with people... I will always be the kind of person that just lays it all out there when it comes to things about myself..but time and time again you hear the whole "guard your heart" scripture and I have beendoing a terrible job of that...and set myself up to be wounded or let down way too frequently. I guess I chooseto see the positive in people and the potential of the incredible person they could be...but while Im seeing that in peopleI need to be more careful taking the time to get to know them in their current situation as well.So much changing to do...thanks Jesus for being faithful and giving wisdom when we ask for it... God loves you just the way you are, but He refuses to leave you that way...Max Lucado | | |
|
